Oh the walls we put up...

Why is it that some people make you feel so vulnerable and naked? You know the ones, right? They can see through the facade, the bullshit, the glass wall. They seem to know how to draw you out, ask the right questions, get you talking. They manage to strip you down without ever taking your clothes off. I have very few people like this in my life and I never know who they will be but they always end up being the people you least expect. I was lucky (?) enough to be out with one of these people last night.

I've lost sleep over this one as I haven't known this person very long but they seem to know every little dark secret I have. I am not ashamed of my life; past, present, future, when I am around this person. I've often told people I am an open book if you ask the right questions and he/she does.

I could talk for hours upon hours in their company about almost anything. There are no boundaries, no limits. I may blush occasionally but always end up singing like a criminal facing a life sentence.

Last night was no different... I tried not to divulge too much and instead opted to listen and offer up opinions when asked. This left me feeling horribly guilty and sad. Uncomfortable silences were plentiful and eventually I gave up and started talking. The mood changed somewhat and I felt much better.

I know you read this blog and this is my apology to you for my attempt at doing something that clearly goes against the grain of our friendship.

I suppose there are just some people in your life that are meant to know you better than you know yourself. They'll never judge but will be honest about what they think. They are not scared to tell you when you are being foolish and won't hesitate to praise you. Sometimes the criticism outweighs the praise and sometimes it is the other way around. Regardless, you always know where you stand. I am grateful for this person and any others I have and would hope they feel the same about me.